Well its been an incredibly long ; hard year filled with plenty of blessings from the Lord. Currently we are praying for new employment. Our jobs are awesome in so many ways but its time to search out new options

The End is Near

Yep, yep it's been a while. This year has come & gone without my sharing all the wonderful stories that have filled my life this year. Part of that is because I have been miserable for a majority of this year. My battles have faced my family, friends and life in general has been tough. And thats OK because its part of life's cycle, part of our NEED for a Saviour. A need for understanding that this world is not our home so we shouldn't get too comfortable in it!!!

I plan to hop on here every now and again to share some of the blessings that God throws my way so I can look back on them in the future and rejoice that He does truly have a plan for my life!!!!!! And to understand that my here & now troubles are only temporary but neccessary in the long lifetime plan He has for me!

So, HAPPY NEW YEAR to each of you!!

Out with it

Well, I finally got to the point where I needed to take a minute or two and journal. These past few months, weeks, and maybe even years have been difficult for our family. Most recently the death of my grandmother just sent me over the edge a bit. Sam came into the room to see me on the couch with tears streaming down my face. "What's wrong hun?". I honestly couldn't put a finger on any one thing. I guess I just needed to get it out.

Yesterday we buried her ashes at the cemetery not to far from home. I couldn't help but think of all the people every where who may be in pain. The families from 9/11. Dear friends who lost a daughter recently; whom I think of daily. And so on. And though I hate to question God the mind still asks--WHY. Why was this necessary? Is it for God's glory?? Who can compare to God anyway that he needs the glory.

And then all the guilty feelings for questioning a God who provides for my every need. It was nice to be held by my husband. Loved on by my BFF through text and cared for by my two year old...who must have known I needed a little TLC. Malachi came and sat with me on the couch and brushed my hair, it was the sweetest thing ever.

My mind is on overload on the list of things that I need to change in my life. And I came to a halt and now here I sit writing a bunch of mumbo jumbo but I don't care; it feels good to get it out. And since it would take a year to actually write it on paper you all get the benefit of reading my goofy thoughts.

Is there a way to send pictures from your cell phone to here like we do on Facebook?

Silly Me

So we have on Nick...and they just announced that the grumpy old troll is getting married. I actually got excited. How silly is that?? You know you've invested time in cartoons when you're excited that someone is getting married. Good gracious!

It's still January??

Seriously, this month seems like its lasting forever. Not sure why I am so eager to see it go. Maybe it's the hardships that this month has brought to our family. Sicknessessssssss(many) & deaths...and now TAX time.

I know taxes really aren't/shouldn't be a hardship. But this is my first year filing taxes for both Mary Kay & 31. I will also be filing for taxes from working at Nazareth this past year. It's usually just one income & now we'll have the paperwork of four. Probably easier than it sounds to me!

So many changes over this past year & I still feel like my head is spinning. Tell me ladies; does it get better?? I don't think I had this hard of a time when we had each of our babies...even then I had a better grip. What the heck?? Anyone else feel like it's just too much?

I have so many things to be THANKFUL for and that is what I want to focus on rather than the nagging feeling that things will never change. I did order a new bible in hopes to get back on track with reading GOD'S word. It's one of those that are in chronological order & it's written so that you can read it in one year. Each day it shows what/how many pages to be read...so far so good. I forgot how intriguing the Old Testament can be.

Welcome 2011!!!

Whoa it's been a while. Thought that maybe today I'd take a moment to say Happy New Year to everyone. 2010 wasn't the best year of my life so I am greatful to have another day & looking forward to what the Lord has in store.

Many times over the past year I have felt like an Isrealite wondering in the desert...with no end in sight. At first the idea of it freaked me out. As I came to accept it I realized that not all desert experiences are bad & no know that I haven't been as alone as I've felt.

Maybe you're thinking-blah, blah, blaH who cares? If so that's understandable. But for now I am using this online blog as a journal. So sit back and enjoy my random thoughts & very random posts.

Hi ho hi ho; its off to work we go!

Our off time is slowly coming to an end & I'm not looking forward to a 14 day shift! It wouldn't be so bad but with a full house plus our three the entire day is one happening after another.