It's 1:46am & I'm awake. Babies are sleeping, husband is snoring. Fan is spinning, and somewhere in this room there is a stinking cricket singing his heart out. I've been having a little sleep issue for about two weeks now. I can't go to sleep. At least at night. Could it be possible that Zeke has rubbed off on me??? B/c sleeping during the day isn't a problem. Nope; it's only during the quite times that I just can't get settled.
My heart is wrestless (sp?) & my mind is reeling with so many what should be's but aren't....and a bunch of nonsense. Such as I really want to paint the walls & the floors. FYI we have concrete floors & walls in all but one room of the house. Yep, that proved pretty much an adventure when J was learning to walk.
Other things on my mind include...I need a liscense, we need a new car, I want a house, Justus needs to potty train, Sam deserves a raise, my toenails are ugly, the laundry is almost caught up- ha what a joke like that will ever happen. Etc., Etc, Etc.
Here are some more...if I lose 10lbs I'll look much better; what color will Zeke's eyes be??, will I ever get good at devos? it's time to take the pool down, now who's gonna do it? Does God hear me tonight??? What's next????
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Dear Diary....
Posted by native-nc at 1:53 AM
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You sound like me lately girl. Take a deep breath, one thing at a time and don't forget to hug your kids as often as possible... that is what gets me through tough days when questions won't stop swirling through my head.
I agree with Jamleah. I have had nights like that. And let me just say on one thing... the potty training thing, don't rush him. Jesse just now (in the last 2 months) is completely potty trained. He has been during the day for about a year now, but at nite it has only been a few months. Don't rush it, J and you will both know when it is time. Boys always take longer and give yourself a break. It will happen, as will the entire list, just breathe. love ya
Man- what was the deal last night...I was up till 4 pouring my heart out in an email. I guess that is life but it always helps to know you aren't the only Christian wondering if God is listening. I would totally go crazy creative with a concrete floor. We have a concrete landing when you walk into the side door before you go downstairs and I painted it green then painted a rug on it- love it- but to have an open canvas as big as a room- fun fun fun! Thanks for being honest....
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